Friday, February 17, 2012

It's Weight Training Time

Last week when my husband started coming home everyday talking about how much fun he is having working out at the gym with some guys from work, I got jealous I mean very jealous.  I know it is not fair or right of me to be jealous of the fact that he is enjoying his workouts and is having fun, but I could not help it.  My workouts have sucked, come on we all know the first 3 miles of a run suck and I am only at 2.5 miles now so all my runs suck.  I want to enjoy a workout I want to have fun working out.  It was not fair that he was having fun and I have to go out for a stupid crappy run and try to put on a big smile and say “at least I am running”.  Bull, I am not getting my runners high, I am not getting enough cardio, I am not putting in enough time working out period.

I did not say anything to him, I don’t want him to feel bad and really this is my issue not his. But it really got me thinking about working out and running and just me in general.  I remembered before I had kids, before I found running I use to be a big gym rat and really loved lifting weights.  Now I am not saying I was a body builder or even close to it, but I was in great shape and I LOVED going to the gym every day.  I miss it, or it could just be I miss feeling good and am looking for a way to get that feeling again.  But either way I decided to join the gym.  

We have a small gym that opened up about 3 miles from my house and it is right on the way to my kid’s sitter and school.  So I went in and signed up.  My first workout had to be at 4am and even though I was tired it was great.  There was no one there using weights so I had them all to myself and I LOVED IT!  I felt great after my workout even though I was tired.  I have gone a couple more times this week after I have dropped the kids off in the morning and it is still not packed at that time and I can get the machines I want.  

Okay so I can’t go get in a good hour run, and my runs kind of suck right now.  But maybe just maybe the gym will help me get back to feeling like me again.  I think this is going to be a great way to get a good workout in that won’t hurt my leg at all.  I will keep trucking along with my runs but I will be hitting the gym several times a week now too. 

I am curious do you go to a gym or do you get all your workouts in without one?

Monday, February 13, 2012

Honor and Celebrations

Saturday was the Virtual Run to honor Sherry.  We got our first real cold spell and the temps dropped to 9 degrees for the run.  It was my coldest run ever but it was for Sherry and so an easy run just would not do. 

My mom was in town for my daughters first birthday so I ended up taking my dog and her dog with me for the run.  I was so surprised that I actually had people honking and flashing there lights at me on the highway while I was running (that never happens out where I live).  It meant a lot to me that others out there knew and were trying to support who and why I was running.  I don't think I have ever cried on a run before but Saturday I cried, I cried for the loss of a life, I cried for the knowledge that this horrible act could have happened to any one of us, and I cried for Sherry's family (I can not imagine the pain they are going through). 

Since I first heard about Sherry's disappearance I have felt a connection to her, and Saturdays run really let me get it out and feel that connection.  I never knew Sherry, but she was me in many ways.  I hope she has found peace and that her family will find peace soon.  I know that I will never forget her even though I never knew her in our lives.  Rest in Peace Sherry you will be remembered.

Saturday was also the celebration of life in our house.  It was my youngest daughters first birthday party.  It just shows how life always goes on.  We did not have any thing major planned and as it turned out our friends that were going to come over to celebrate could not make it as the whole family was fighting the flu.  So we just did a small celebration with the family and it was actually very nice.

I am still trying to go more Vegan and have been really liking the foods and have been feeling so much better since cutting a lot of the junk food from my diet.  So even though I made a cake for the baby and everyone else I did end up making a Vegan dessert for me that was so yummy I did not miss the cake at all.  My daughter loved her first cake and got petty messy as you can see from the picture.

I hope you all had a great weekend.  Were you able to get out and run for Sherry?  Or did you dedicate a workout in her honor over the weekend?

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

My daily battle

I remember a time when I wanted to work out, I mean I got up in the morning and I wanted to go to the gym and work till my muscles were sore and push to see just how much more I could do today than the day before.

Today I need to work out, but I don’t want to.  Every day is a struggle to get myself up and moving.  I have a constant battle in my head one side says “you need this just do it you will feel better if you do”, the other side replies “FU”.  And this goes on for hours till I finally go for a run or I just get me a cookie and call it good.
How do I get back to the time when I actually wanted to work out?  I know it makes me feel good, and I know I always feel better when I do it. So why is it so hard to just do it?  If I knew that in 2weeks I would want to do it, or that it would be less of a fight with myself it might be easier to push to get there, but let’s face it this struggle with me has been going on more than 2 weeks and it is not getting any easier.

I hate fighting epically with myself; I mean I can’t just ignore myself like I can other people.  How do you just not answer the phone when the phone is in your head right!  So how do I stop this constant bickering with myself, how do I get my lazy I don’t want to do it side to get out there running without the constant fight? 
How do you do it?  Do you have to fight with your lazy side too, or are you in the workout paradise I remember where your whole self wants to do? 


Thursday, February 2, 2012

Happy Birthday to Me!!

It is my Birthday today!  I am a whopping 36 years old today. Each year I always want to do some awesome mileage on my birthday, my friend Anna did 30 mile on her 30th wich I thought was totally awesome.  But every year I seem to be injured or pregnant for my birthday.  This year I am just coming off an injury and am just not running much yet.  So when it came time for my run I almost did not go then I thought how can I not run on my birthday so I dragged buy booty up stairs and got changed and went out.  I had a great run even if it was short and I feel so much better after doing it. Why it is so hard some days to get the motivation I will never know.

When I got home, I got cleaned up and started making dinner when the door bell rang and what was it but flowers from my hubby.  He is out of town for work and could not be here so he sent flowers to let me know he loves me and is super sorry he was not here today. 

He will be home in a couple days and we will celebrate then, but it sure is nice to get some flowers and know that he cares.  Tonight I will just hang with my girls and hopefully get to bed early (I know such the party animal right). 

What do you all do on your birthday's?  Since having the kids I am usually happy with dinner out and a nice quiet evening with the family. Before the kids, well lets just say my birthdays were a LOT more exciting.


Wednesday, February 1, 2012

The Color Run

I have found my next race, The Color Run.  With my leg being so messed up I have not done a race since my TRI back in 2010, WOW has it really been that long?  After having my daughter last year, I did start to train for the Kansas City Half but my leg got hurt again on my 10mile run so I ended up back at ground 0 again.  And that is where I am at now. 

This time around I decided that I would NOT sign up for a race and I would not train for a race.  So that I can build up slow and get a good base so that I don't hurt my leg again.  This race however just looks like way to much fun, and it is only a 5k and 4 months away so I am pretty sure I can swing this without getting hurt.

I am also really thinking about doing this race with my oldest daughter.  She will just be a couple weeks shy of 5 for this race.  I think she would have a blast getting sprayed with paint, but not sure she will have a blast doing a 5k.  She loves to run, but only short distances.  We go out for walks all the time and she always wants to race, but only for a short time. 

I asked her if she wanted to do this race and she said yes so if I do decide to sign her up, I think we will have to go on some 3 mile walks and see how she does.  During this race you get sprayed by pant every 1k so we will break it down by 1k then 1k and so on.  That should make it more fun for her and keep her motivated I think.  We will also walk most of this, unless she chooses to run.

Do you think 5 is an okay age to do a 5k?  Am I pushing her too much to even try to do this race with her?